this is the first time a friend of mine has died. it's just so....present. he's not my parent or grandparent, he's in my generation and he died of a heart attack.
main reason why this sucks: i miss my friend. i mean, i just saw him, and he was so healthy and saying "fuck" every tenth word like usual.
oh, and i'm going to miss the funeral this weekend because i'm going to be in arkansas on a lake reassembling my sanity.